Nikko woke up at 5a and cried out. I got up, went into his room, turned out the night light so it was pitch black in there, then laid down next to him. I think we both fell back asleep eventually. Ronin woke us up at 6:30a with his cries.
Recently I found some yogurt from Meijer that said it had probiotics in it, and another generic kind that said Digestive Care Probiotic lowfat yogurt. Is that just a fancy way of saying it's yogurt, or is this kind of yogurt different from its counterparts? This was strawberry flavored and in perfect single-serving sizes for me to give to Nikko. He had one for breakfast and wanted more. He finished three of them the entire day. He was having some after lunch when Ronin saw Melissa out front, who arrived for ABA. I went to the door to open it, and Nikko immediately let out a howl and angry cries, thinking I was walking out the door unannounced. I looked at him and tried to reassure him I wasn't going anywhere when Melissa walked in and he calmed down. It made me wonder how, despite the ABA is without me in the room and he's getting better at me leaving, is Nikko supposed to become less attached to me? Is ABA supposed to help with this? Nikko must have left a microchip inside me before he left to be born because he is constantly attuned to where I'm at or am going. Denis was home today so he watched Audrey while I took Ronin downstairs with Nikko and Melissa. I showed her the visual prompts that Maria asked for, and when it was time to go Nikko came up to me, kissed me and said Bye. We headed upstairs but he did a little bit of whining and ran over to the staircase until Melissa herded him back toward the table. He turned and ran to sit down, ready to work, but still whining a little bit. Upstairs, I heard some protesting going on and figured he wasn't having the best session. When Melissa came upstairs she confirmed that he had a harder time than last time, lots of whining and fidgeting. I wonder if it's due to the weekend, 3 days between him and the last ABA session of the week. She also said that during one of the drills, he scattered crayons around and she told him he'd have to clean them up. He looked at her as if to say, "Are you kidding me?" but proceeded to do it, and then he hit her. He probably swatted her in frustration or protest, not because he wanted to hurt her, which is what Melissa assumed. I told her he's begun to swat at Denis and me as well, especially when he's frustrated about something. Melissa said she'd talk to Maria about the best way to handle it, and I asked if Maria would email me about it too because I'd like to be able to implement the correct behavior for him. I emailed Maria tonight just as a follow-up on this.
Nikko didn't nap the rest of the day. We went to the basement to run off steam before dinner. He really enjoys saying, "Ready, set, GO!" and then having a chase or being chased by Denis or myself. He is also open to doing this with Ronin if they are both in good moods. During dinnertime I toyed with the idea of the melatonin again, and this time put it in his juice at 7:45p instead of 8:11p yesterday. I wanted to see how long it would take to kick in. I think it kicked in at 8:45p because that's when I saw Nikko do some slow eye blinking. But he also could have just been tired from no nap all day. This is actually something I rationalized when I was typing a message to a good friend :), so to paste it verbatim: Nikko was never a consistent napper, which drove/drives me crazy. Even if we run him and ourselves ragged in the basement or outside, it's no guarantee that he'll be tired enough to nap. It's as if Nikko has to be tired on his own terms. I've discovered that (not including a 15 minute nap on the bus ride home from preschool) if Nikko falls asleep for a nap during the day, and for more than 30 minutes, then it's practically guaranteed that he will not be dead tired or sleepy at bedtime. I almost do what I can to keep Nikko awake all day, unless I see that he's desperate for a nap. And then I still don't let him sleep long, no longer than an hour, less is better. I guess on those nap days I could give Nikko the melatonin, and not give it on days he is awake all day. That's a long day for a 3.5 yr old, from 6:30a to 9p! 15 hours! So I think that will be my temporary solution to the melatonin issue.
One last thing. Early in the morning, Nikko was playing with the Little People castle and was singing the melody to Micky Mouse Clubhouse. As he sang, he picked up the castle about a foot off the floor and dropped it unceremoniously. I think he was simulating how the Clubhouse had floated away, just like on the DVD we watched for three days straight. Hmmmmm.
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Monday, March 8, 2010
Caved in.
Just a quick entry, I hope, because again it's past 1a. :( Last night, Nikko had his mini-meltdown before bed, but slept until 6:30a. Ronin, on the other hand, woke up at 3a and was calling out for me. I tried to ignore his cries for a few minutes, and they were pretty loud, but then I heard him wail, "Mommy, where are you? Open the door, Mommy! Open the door!" And my heart just broke hearing that. I got up and walked in. He met me at the door and said, "I want to play." "No, it's 3am. Go back to bed." He jumped into bed and drifted off. I think I adjusted his blankets, turned and left. He didn't cry after me or follow, thank goodness. It totally broke my heart to hear his voice, can't explain it. How the heck am I supposed to ignore those cries??
Tonight, I put half a crushed tablet of melatonin in Nikko's juice and gave it to him at 8:11p. He finished it, and after I put Audrey down I was keeping an eye on Nikko to see if he'd get tired. I've heard one should give it 30 minutes before sleep time. But it was 9p, he was out of the bath and no signs of sleepiness. When it was tuck-in time, Nikko was drowsy but he also had an eye on me. When I got up to turn on his CD, he sat up in bed, alert. I sat with him until his eyes got heavy and he fell asleep, but I'm wondering if I should give him the melatonin earlier, like 8p instead.
Tonight, I put half a crushed tablet of melatonin in Nikko's juice and gave it to him at 8:11p. He finished it, and after I put Audrey down I was keeping an eye on Nikko to see if he'd get tired. I've heard one should give it 30 minutes before sleep time. But it was 9p, he was out of the bath and no signs of sleepiness. When it was tuck-in time, Nikko was drowsy but he also had an eye on me. When I got up to turn on his CD, he sat up in bed, alert. I sat with him until his eyes got heavy and he fell asleep, but I'm wondering if I should give him the melatonin earlier, like 8p instead.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Strong Wills
I should preface this by saying today was day 2 with a painful canker sore on the right side of my tongue. Don't know how it got there. Yesterday I was in pain but tried a numbing agent that really didn't work. This morning I felt absolutely miserable and in pain.
4a - Nikko wakes up crying. I go to his room and he's standing on the carpet, a little dazed. I point him back to bed and he looks at me with semi-wide eyes. I don't know if he'll fall back asleep right away, and my resolve to leave the room crumbles so I turn off his night light, making the room almost pitch black, and then I lay next to him. He seems to be awake for an eternity but them falls back asleep. Then, at 4:40a, I hear Ronin crying out. I leave Nikko and open Ronin's door. He's standing at it, tells me, "I want to play!" "Ronin, it's 4 in the morning, no one is playing, everyone is sleeping. Go back to bed." He scurries to bed and I tuck him in, but continue to sit on the edge of his bed because I don't know if I should stay or go. "Mommy, do you want to lie down next to me?" he asks. "I don't know," I say. And then he drifts off, but starts muttering, "I want juice and cookies." I decide to stay for a little while just in case he stirs again.
At 5a I walk back to my bed, and suddenly can't fall back asleep for another 20 minutes.
At 6a Nikko wakes up crying so I head to his room again. I lay down, we drift.
At 7a Ronin wakes up, so everyone else does, too. Coupled with the pain from my canker sore, I am in a foul mood and don't want to talk to anybody. I want to just go back to sleep! Luckily I didn't stay in a completely bad mood during breakfast, although I was tempted to snap back at Ronin for changing his mind so many times about what to eat. The weather was supposed to be awesome today, 40 degree temps and sunny! Denis said we should go to the nature center after breakfast, and then maybe to ABT to check out their vacuums and freezers, since there's a big sale next weekend. I didn't care what we did because my tongue hurt. It hurt to swallow, to chew, and to drink since there was a sensitive lump that kept brushing against my teeth. We managed to head out around 10a and went to ABT first. Audrey was in an umbrella stroller and the boys walked. While we talked with a floor salesperson, Ronin kept saying he wanted to go and "see the animals" at the nature center. Nikko kept flopping onto the floor and lay on his back. I really wonder why he was doing that because it looked really silly. I should have glanced at the ceiling to see if there was anything interesting up there. Audrey was very patient in her stroller. Our store visit was tolerable, but the boys were getting antsy at the end of it.
Off to the nature center we went! We love going there because it's got some real creatures like turtles, snakes, eagles, and a fox. There's an educational element to it, and the park district just did a great job building this resource. Nikko got attached to a felt sunflower, which I made him say good-bye to and put back. He wasn't interested in walking part of a trail. I think he was tired from the early morning waking as well as hungry, because he kept pulling me to the car and had a mini-meltdown. I had to resort to a Dum Dum lollipop to keep him at bay. When he finished it and signed for a cookie and said Candy, I refused him saying we would eat a real lunch at home. He was really unhappy about it, but I stood firm, no more candy! We all had lunch. Ronin was relentless about having some french fries that we got when we ordered some Buffalo Wild Wings to go, but when I called them about what kind of oil the fries were cooked in, the "beef estella shortening" didn't give me any peace of mind so I had to preheat the oven for some Ore-Ida french fries that are Ronin-safe. Earlier this morning, in the basement, Ronin had come across a free DVD cartoon from a Fisher Price GeoTrax train that I had forgotten about over the years. Nikko wanted it too, of course, and eventually he won the tug-of-war. I put this DVD on after lunch and it is now a favorite of the boys. Nikko fell asleep on the couch while watching it, and I let him sleep for an hour before having to wake him. Yes, it totally affected him at bedtime where he was awake and had a meltdown when I left the room. At tuck-in time, Nikko kept sitting up when I told him to stay in bed. He was protesting my leaving, bounding out of bed and falling to the floor. I had to pick him up and throw him back in bed. I finally turned around and left while he got up to protest. I heard him screaming and crashing to his knees while I went to tuck in Ronin and say good night. When I came back to Nikko's room, I opened the door and sternly pointed to his bed so he'd go back in. He threw himself back into the car bed and I noticed it had moved a foot off the wall for whatever reason. I tucked him in and said, while putting a finger sharply to his shoulder, "STAY IN BED. STAY IN BED. STAY IN BED." When I walked out, there were no more tears. Does this mean that he's always going to have one big protest session, requiring me to come back and put him in bed, and then he's good to go? That's been the pattern the last few times he's gone to bed awake. Something to ponder. Well, tonight (it's 1:17a right now) I am going to try to keep my resolve up and NOT go to either of the boys if/when they have a waking at 4a or 5a. I'll try to do this for a week. It will probably wake up Audrey, but these guys have to learn that they need to stay in their beds and put themselves back to sleep if they wake up early. I'll possibly get up at 6 or 6:30 for them, but not earlier. Don't know about 5:45 yet. This Cry It Out method seems harsh, but for these strong-willed boys who are steamrolling over me during the day as well as night, I think they need a more direct approach than just walking them back to their beds. I'll try it for a week and then reevaluate it. I don't have anything to lose, and maybe they'll catch on and just stay in their beds the rest of the night. I need to do SOMETHING, and putting Nikko alone in a room isn't enough. Now Ronin's started his pattern of morning wakings, and I've got to try to stop them both. If I can get out of the house tomorrow, I'll look for melatonin. As for my tongue, this evening while the kids were in the basement with Denis, I put some salt directly on the canker sore to clean it/seal it. Totally burns. Totally hurts. I took some ibuprofen for the pain. But honestly, it feels just a tad better than the entire day. I hope it will heal at night.
4a - Nikko wakes up crying. I go to his room and he's standing on the carpet, a little dazed. I point him back to bed and he looks at me with semi-wide eyes. I don't know if he'll fall back asleep right away, and my resolve to leave the room crumbles so I turn off his night light, making the room almost pitch black, and then I lay next to him. He seems to be awake for an eternity but them falls back asleep. Then, at 4:40a, I hear Ronin crying out. I leave Nikko and open Ronin's door. He's standing at it, tells me, "I want to play!" "Ronin, it's 4 in the morning, no one is playing, everyone is sleeping. Go back to bed." He scurries to bed and I tuck him in, but continue to sit on the edge of his bed because I don't know if I should stay or go. "Mommy, do you want to lie down next to me?" he asks. "I don't know," I say. And then he drifts off, but starts muttering, "I want juice and cookies." I decide to stay for a little while just in case he stirs again.
At 5a I walk back to my bed, and suddenly can't fall back asleep for another 20 minutes.
At 6a Nikko wakes up crying so I head to his room again. I lay down, we drift.
At 7a Ronin wakes up, so everyone else does, too. Coupled with the pain from my canker sore, I am in a foul mood and don't want to talk to anybody. I want to just go back to sleep! Luckily I didn't stay in a completely bad mood during breakfast, although I was tempted to snap back at Ronin for changing his mind so many times about what to eat. The weather was supposed to be awesome today, 40 degree temps and sunny! Denis said we should go to the nature center after breakfast, and then maybe to ABT to check out their vacuums and freezers, since there's a big sale next weekend. I didn't care what we did because my tongue hurt. It hurt to swallow, to chew, and to drink since there was a sensitive lump that kept brushing against my teeth. We managed to head out around 10a and went to ABT first. Audrey was in an umbrella stroller and the boys walked. While we talked with a floor salesperson, Ronin kept saying he wanted to go and "see the animals" at the nature center. Nikko kept flopping onto the floor and lay on his back. I really wonder why he was doing that because it looked really silly. I should have glanced at the ceiling to see if there was anything interesting up there. Audrey was very patient in her stroller. Our store visit was tolerable, but the boys were getting antsy at the end of it.
Off to the nature center we went! We love going there because it's got some real creatures like turtles, snakes, eagles, and a fox. There's an educational element to it, and the park district just did a great job building this resource. Nikko got attached to a felt sunflower, which I made him say good-bye to and put back. He wasn't interested in walking part of a trail. I think he was tired from the early morning waking as well as hungry, because he kept pulling me to the car and had a mini-meltdown. I had to resort to a Dum Dum lollipop to keep him at bay. When he finished it and signed for a cookie and said Candy, I refused him saying we would eat a real lunch at home. He was really unhappy about it, but I stood firm, no more candy! We all had lunch. Ronin was relentless about having some french fries that we got when we ordered some Buffalo Wild Wings to go, but when I called them about what kind of oil the fries were cooked in, the "beef estella shortening" didn't give me any peace of mind so I had to preheat the oven for some Ore-Ida french fries that are Ronin-safe. Earlier this morning, in the basement, Ronin had come across a free DVD cartoon from a Fisher Price GeoTrax train that I had forgotten about over the years. Nikko wanted it too, of course, and eventually he won the tug-of-war. I put this DVD on after lunch and it is now a favorite of the boys. Nikko fell asleep on the couch while watching it, and I let him sleep for an hour before having to wake him. Yes, it totally affected him at bedtime where he was awake and had a meltdown when I left the room. At tuck-in time, Nikko kept sitting up when I told him to stay in bed. He was protesting my leaving, bounding out of bed and falling to the floor. I had to pick him up and throw him back in bed. I finally turned around and left while he got up to protest. I heard him screaming and crashing to his knees while I went to tuck in Ronin and say good night. When I came back to Nikko's room, I opened the door and sternly pointed to his bed so he'd go back in. He threw himself back into the car bed and I noticed it had moved a foot off the wall for whatever reason. I tucked him in and said, while putting a finger sharply to his shoulder, "STAY IN BED. STAY IN BED. STAY IN BED." When I walked out, there were no more tears. Does this mean that he's always going to have one big protest session, requiring me to come back and put him in bed, and then he's good to go? That's been the pattern the last few times he's gone to bed awake. Something to ponder. Well, tonight (it's 1:17a right now) I am going to try to keep my resolve up and NOT go to either of the boys if/when they have a waking at 4a or 5a. I'll try to do this for a week. It will probably wake up Audrey, but these guys have to learn that they need to stay in their beds and put themselves back to sleep if they wake up early. I'll possibly get up at 6 or 6:30 for them, but not earlier. Don't know about 5:45 yet. This Cry It Out method seems harsh, but for these strong-willed boys who are steamrolling over me during the day as well as night, I think they need a more direct approach than just walking them back to their beds. I'll try it for a week and then reevaluate it. I don't have anything to lose, and maybe they'll catch on and just stay in their beds the rest of the night. I need to do SOMETHING, and putting Nikko alone in a room isn't enough. Now Ronin's started his pattern of morning wakings, and I've got to try to stop them both. If I can get out of the house tomorrow, I'll look for melatonin. As for my tongue, this evening while the kids were in the basement with Denis, I put some salt directly on the canker sore to clean it/seal it. Totally burns. Totally hurts. I took some ibuprofen for the pain. But honestly, it feels just a tad better than the entire day. I hope it will heal at night.
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Xylophone
Speech report: Working on 1-step directions, naming, greeting. Great job giving plastic food object from field of 9 today!
The school sent home a bunch of 3.5 x 3.5 cards with pictures/words: GO, STOP, HELP, Please Wait, Bathroom, and I Need A Break. I hope to get a hole puncher and some big rings to make this visual support. I should have added directions such as Stand Up and Sit Down. I'll think of some extras and then request them later. Nikko had fallen asleep on the bus ride home, in his snowpants, and was really groggy to wake him up. It was the only nap he got all day. It wasn't a very exciting day for Nikko, whereas I was constantly getting up from my chair to peek into the living room and see if Nikko was doing anything fishy, or checking his diaper constantly. I call it Poop Paranoia. I had put all the colored rubber mats from the living room into Nikko's bedroom, turning on the ceiling fan and opening a window to dry them. I put them back today and now things are looking more like normal. Ronin had a nap and I tried to catch a wink while Signing Time was on, but Nikko kept bugging me to put in one of the Veggie Tales DVDs instead. He can say "Veggie Tales," and can even babble the theme song in fragments. Ronin had the opportunity to go to the pool at the Rec Plexx with Denis tonight. They were gone for a long time so I thought Ronin must be loving the swim time. When they came home I was getting Audrey ready for bed. I asked Ronin how was swimming and he didn't say anything, just ran out of the room. For someone who seemed excited to swim like Bruce the Shark in Finding Nemo, or to be like Troy the Shark in The Reef, Ronin was noncommittal. I asked Denis how things went and Denis told me that Ronin didn't like swimming. I was totally shocked because Ronin loved going to the pool over the summer. Denis thinks that at the beginning when Ronin was stepping into the pool he reached for a bar and slipped under, and that might have ruined it for him. Ronin mainly sat on the side and threw stuff into the water. I was so disappointed to hear this! I hope he gets over it quickly because I think Audrey is going to be a force to be reckoned with at the pool this summer.
When I was giving Audrey a bath, Nikko came in and was getting annoyed that it wasn't time for him to take a bath. He was whining and trying to get into the tub, but I had to keep telling him his bath time was later. Finally, when I used the shower head on Audrey, Nikko found it entertaining to touch the sharp blasts of water. At least that ended on a good note. But when it was actually Nikko's bath time, he turned up the heat on his crying and wailing. I think he was overtired, especially because his bath was happening after 9p when it usually happens before. Nikko was really crying loudly and probably made Denis deaf. Denis had a lot of patience with Nikko, given that he himself was tired from work and then from taking a resisting Ronin to the pool. Nikko fell fast asleep when it was tuck-in time.
One more thing I don't think I blogged about because I keep forgetting: a few days ago, when we were in the basement, I pulled out the toy xylophone and started hammering out Twinkle Twinkle Little Star. I sang along so that the kids could hear what I was banging out. They also recognized it from Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. Nikko came over and grabbed the stick from me. He started tapping out random notes at a steady beat, so I sang the Twinkle song loudly. For each of his taps I sang a word. At the end when I sang, "How I wonder what you are?", he would emphatically tap each note, and slowed down until I hit the last note. His stick also hit the last note with finality, ending the song. I sang it a few more times, and each time I noticed that at the last phrase, Nikko was starting to tap each note more lightly, a decrescendo if you will, and then the final tap would be soft, a pianoforte. I really wonder if he noticed what he was doing, and wondered if he was really controlling the force of the stick to emphasize the loudness and softness of the song. The next day, during his ABA session with Maria, I suddenly heard the pounding of the xylophone again. After the session, she remarked that when Nikko had his solo play time, he went right to the bin with the xylophone and started hammering away. This solo play time was an issue in our last team meeting because Maria stated that Nikko didn't know what to do when told to go play by himself. He'd literally stand there waiting for the therapist to tell him what to do, or what to play with. So hearing that Nikko chose the xylophone by himself really makes me feel good!
The school sent home a bunch of 3.5 x 3.5 cards with pictures/words: GO, STOP, HELP, Please Wait, Bathroom, and I Need A Break. I hope to get a hole puncher and some big rings to make this visual support. I should have added directions such as Stand Up and Sit Down. I'll think of some extras and then request them later. Nikko had fallen asleep on the bus ride home, in his snowpants, and was really groggy to wake him up. It was the only nap he got all day. It wasn't a very exciting day for Nikko, whereas I was constantly getting up from my chair to peek into the living room and see if Nikko was doing anything fishy, or checking his diaper constantly. I call it Poop Paranoia. I had put all the colored rubber mats from the living room into Nikko's bedroom, turning on the ceiling fan and opening a window to dry them. I put them back today and now things are looking more like normal. Ronin had a nap and I tried to catch a wink while Signing Time was on, but Nikko kept bugging me to put in one of the Veggie Tales DVDs instead. He can say "Veggie Tales," and can even babble the theme song in fragments. Ronin had the opportunity to go to the pool at the Rec Plexx with Denis tonight. They were gone for a long time so I thought Ronin must be loving the swim time. When they came home I was getting Audrey ready for bed. I asked Ronin how was swimming and he didn't say anything, just ran out of the room. For someone who seemed excited to swim like Bruce the Shark in Finding Nemo, or to be like Troy the Shark in The Reef, Ronin was noncommittal. I asked Denis how things went and Denis told me that Ronin didn't like swimming. I was totally shocked because Ronin loved going to the pool over the summer. Denis thinks that at the beginning when Ronin was stepping into the pool he reached for a bar and slipped under, and that might have ruined it for him. Ronin mainly sat on the side and threw stuff into the water. I was so disappointed to hear this! I hope he gets over it quickly because I think Audrey is going to be a force to be reckoned with at the pool this summer.
When I was giving Audrey a bath, Nikko came in and was getting annoyed that it wasn't time for him to take a bath. He was whining and trying to get into the tub, but I had to keep telling him his bath time was later. Finally, when I used the shower head on Audrey, Nikko found it entertaining to touch the sharp blasts of water. At least that ended on a good note. But when it was actually Nikko's bath time, he turned up the heat on his crying and wailing. I think he was overtired, especially because his bath was happening after 9p when it usually happens before. Nikko was really crying loudly and probably made Denis deaf. Denis had a lot of patience with Nikko, given that he himself was tired from work and then from taking a resisting Ronin to the pool. Nikko fell fast asleep when it was tuck-in time.
One more thing I don't think I blogged about because I keep forgetting: a few days ago, when we were in the basement, I pulled out the toy xylophone and started hammering out Twinkle Twinkle Little Star. I sang along so that the kids could hear what I was banging out. They also recognized it from Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. Nikko came over and grabbed the stick from me. He started tapping out random notes at a steady beat, so I sang the Twinkle song loudly. For each of his taps I sang a word. At the end when I sang, "How I wonder what you are?", he would emphatically tap each note, and slowed down until I hit the last note. His stick also hit the last note with finality, ending the song. I sang it a few more times, and each time I noticed that at the last phrase, Nikko was starting to tap each note more lightly, a decrescendo if you will, and then the final tap would be soft, a pianoforte. I really wonder if he noticed what he was doing, and wondered if he was really controlling the force of the stick to emphasize the loudness and softness of the song. The next day, during his ABA session with Maria, I suddenly heard the pounding of the xylophone again. After the session, she remarked that when Nikko had his solo play time, he went right to the bin with the xylophone and started hammering away. This solo play time was an issue in our last team meeting because Maria stated that Nikko didn't know what to do when told to go play by himself. He'd literally stand there waiting for the therapist to tell him what to do, or what to play with. So hearing that Nikko chose the xylophone by himself really makes me feel good!
Friday, March 5, 2010
The worst kind of afternoon for me / Speech options / Good ABA session (A LONG POST, HERE!)
5:45a Nikko cries out because he's awake. I go to him to possibly lay down until 7. Then I hear Ronin start waking up. His cries get longer and I'm with Nikko, hesitating about how to go to Ronin. I hear Denis get up and go to the nursery to placate Ronin, but Ronin won't have it. I gather Nikko and go get Ronin before Audrey is fully awake. We go lie down in the living room, and a frustrated Denis goes back to bed because he has to work. While Ronin falls back asleep on the floor with me, Nikko does not, and continues to babble at varying volumes. At 7a I give up trying to get any zzz's and take Nikko into the kitchen for breakfast.
Nikko had a good speech report today: GREAT with "give me" today for foods & family pix!
This was also coupled with an emailed response to the school team regarding what ST/OT services Nikko was getting throughout the week, as well as the possibility of looking into private speech therapy for the future:
He really had a great speech session today. The giving pictures and objects on request was awesome! He was immediately able to pick up your picture, dads, Ronin's and Audrey's on request. ABA must really be helping with that one. He matched plastic food to the photographs and gave them when I asked (banana, apple, hot dog, hamburger). He is repeating anything we are asking him to say. Now I am asking the team to have him repeat the name of things he wants/needs/uses and then take the object away from him and wait for him to say the work by himself. Like I was doing with the Wiggles DVD at your house? I want to have him pull the word out on his own without the model and not be reliant/echoing others. any times during the day that you can do that too would be great. You can really see his wheels turning to pull the words out. I am finding it hard though to pull him back from his verbal jargoning at times. We will keep pulling him.
Jean sees Nikko for OT 1-1 from 8:30 - 9:00 on Tuesdays and also at centers on Wednesday. She works with him at arrival and dismissal routines, also in the sensory motor group on Tuesday from 10:20 - 10:50. She also oversees his sensory diet.
I see Nikko during group language everyday for 10 minutes, at centers twice a week and then I pull him for 20 minutes twice a week 1-1.
We talked about the idea of private speech. We can't really recommend private therapy to parents. He is at a prime language time now but will be getting a lot of communication work during ABA too. Many families do find private speech beneficial especially when there are breaks from school like over the summer. Have you checked with your insurance company to see if they would cover it?
Please don't ever be embarrassed to ask questions!!!! That's what we are here for!
Maria came for therapy at 1p. We all went downstairs and Ronin & Audrey were eager to play there as well as interact with Maria. But when it was time to go, Nikko turned to me to kiss me good bye and I said to him, "Have fun! See you later!" We went upstairs and I tried to finish giving Audrey her lunch. I could hear some of Nikko's whining in the background, and twice I actually stood in the hallway because Nikko sounded like he was protesting something. All I could hear was praise coming from Maria, as if she were engaging him in an activity that he didn't want to complete. I heard her tell Nikko to clap his hands. I couldn't tell if he actually did; I think she'd tell him and then sit back and wait until he did, or until he sat doing nothing and then she'd ask him one more time before she did hand over hand. That, in essence is how the "drill" portion of the therapy was supposed to work. But when the session was finished and they came upstairs, Maria said he had a really good session. He did very well with matching, saying our names (daddy, Audrey, mommy, Ronin) and picking the correct photo, which she said he did perfectly. She asked me if, when Nikko gets frustrated, does he scream or make noises? I said yes, he's begun to whine and the whining starts cranking up if he doesn't get what he wants. Maria suggested that the school make a visual prompt on a ring, using words such as : Wait, Stop, Go, Help, Break, Bathroom. The visual prompt is basically a picture to represent the action. The school team uses a big metal ring with a PEC picture of an action on it, so when a teacher tells Nikko to STAND UP for whatever reason, they will tell him and then flip to the picture of a person standing up. This reinforces the verbal action with a visual aid, or prompt. Ta-daaaa. Two other things Maria talked to me about today were note-taking, and respite. She said that if we wanted someone (her) to come take notes during Nikko's IEP meeting (June 4th) then we can ask her and she'll do it, to keep track of who said what during the meeting. Her fee would be less than the current hourly rate. It sounds like a good idea, since I may have a hard time trying to keep track of everything going on in the meeting, but I told her I'd talk about it with Denis. Maria also asked me if I ever use services via the school or support groups to take a break. Um, no... How about family members? Um, sometimes... She told me that especially over the summer MGB Services gets college students to help, or babysit, and that for a small fee (of course) I might want to try it. I told her that I would seriously consider that, because I really do need to break from these kids on occasion. Or I'll go mad.
****TMI ALERT! TMI ALERT!**** IF YOU CAN'T HANDLE GRAPHIC POO DESCRIPTIONS, SKIP TO THE LAST PARAGRAPH NOW!
Ah, what a pity that my day didn't end there. Ronin was in his room napping when ABA was finished. Nikko was in the living room, Audrey was floating between rooms, and I was at the laptop writing on the ASD forum about the possibility of using melatonin for Nikko and what others' experiences were with their kids. I think Audrey was complaining about something when I realized that Nikko had been pretty silent for a while. I got up to check on him in the living room and he appeared in front of me with his hands covered in poo. I grabbed his sleeved forearms and tried to quickly assess the situation. It was bad. I glanced at the couch armrest near the mirrored wall and saw streaks. I looked at the table near the window and saw streaks. I stifled a scream and tried to scan the floors and trace where he might have been camping out. I noticed one of the ottomans had some streaks. Later, I'd notice one of the Thomas chairs was a victim, as well as the chaise lounge end of the sofa and one of Ronin's sweatpants that became a victim by association. I started dragging Nikko toward the kitchen because he was starting to rub his hands together and I could see some not-so-dried flecks fall to the floor. Then I saw Audrey in the doorway and I stopped cold. No way could she be on the loose, so I had to briefly let Nikko go, scoop up Audrey and put her in her high chair. Thankfully her bottle of milk was half-full and already sitting there. Then I quickly seized Nikko's forearms again and ran to the tub. I put him in, stripped him down to his diaper, turned on the faucet and sprayed his hands full of foam soap to occupy him. I ran back to Audrey and dumped a bunch of animal cookies onto her tray. I gathered paper towels, Lysol wipes, plastic bags for garbage, and Carpet Resolve. I kept running back to check on Nikko while I raced around the living room, spraying Resolve on the couch and rubbing off the streaks, then reapplying and rubbing again. I scrubbed the table, put the Thomas chair up high so I could wash the cover later, put all the blankets on the floor in a laundry basket because I had no idea if any flecks fell on them, gathered a toy or two that got smeared, and kept scanning the floor for obvious things to step on. Ronin woke up and was calling to me from his room, but I kept him in there as long as I could before taking him out and plopped him into his high chair, along with some animal cookies. Nikko had already stepped out of the tub numerous times to see what I was doing, so now I could finally get to him and scrub him down. While in the bathroom, I heard a CRASH from the kitchen. I went in to see that Audrey had dragged a small plate on top of the dishwasher over to her high chair, then pushed it off her tray. It broke into big and little pieces, so I had to sweep up the porcelain plate and worry that the kids could step on shards. While I seemed in control with Nikko's poo situation, putting the broken plate on top of it made me lose my cool and I was mad about everything now. I finished bathing Nikko and dressed him up in the kitchen. Then I sat him down and threw Oreos at everyone so I could go back to the living room and pull up all the colored rubber mats on the floor. I couldn't take any chances with the mats, and they hadn't been washed in a long time anyway. I put them all in the tub and rinsed them off, later putting dishwashing soap on them too. The bathroom looked pretty trashed. Then I swiffered the floor and then mopped it. By now, Audrey was going ballistic because she had sat the longest of everyone. I let her go, finally. Nikko must have been tired from everything because he fell asleep for a 45 minute nap. I was really surprised by his bowel movement because it came out of nowhere. I've been putting half a cap of MiraLAX in his juice for two days on, a few off, to keep him regular. On a day where he's having a movement, difficult or not, there would be smears in his diaper and I'd be aware that he was working on something. This time, there were no warning smears, otherwise I'd have been watching him even more closely to prevent this very event. I don't think he particularly enjoyed the smearfest; it's not a sensory thing in my opinion, I just think he had a movement, hadn't' been changed right away, felt really uncomfortable, and so he started scratching. Downhill from there.
Just before I put Audrey down to bed, Denis and the boys were in the living room in front of the TV. The boys were fighting over the unsoiled Thomas chair, but Denis started doing turn-taking between them and the boys responded well. When Nikko sat down, we would say, "Nikko's turn!" then he'd bound up and be followed by Ronin for "Ronin's turn!" Nikko sat down again, waiting for someone to announce his turn. When neither Denis nor I said anything, Nikko turned to look at me and said, "Nikko's turn!" Then I'd repeat it and he bounded off. Denis had told me Nikko was saying Nikko's Turn, but I hadn't heard it until just then. That was a glimmer of spontaneous communication to me! :)
Nikko had a good speech report today: GREAT with "give me" today for foods & family pix!
This was also coupled with an emailed response to the school team regarding what ST/OT services Nikko was getting throughout the week, as well as the possibility of looking into private speech therapy for the future:
He really had a great speech session today. The giving pictures and objects on request was awesome! He was immediately able to pick up your picture, dads, Ronin's and Audrey's on request. ABA must really be helping with that one. He matched plastic food to the photographs and gave them when I asked (banana, apple, hot dog, hamburger). He is repeating anything we are asking him to say. Now I am asking the team to have him repeat the name of things he wants/needs/uses and then take the object away from him and wait for him to say the work by himself. Like I was doing with the Wiggles DVD at your house? I want to have him pull the word out on his own without the model and not be reliant/echoing others. any times during the day that you can do that too would be great. You can really see his wheels turning to pull the words out. I am finding it hard though to pull him back from his verbal jargoning at times. We will keep pulling him.
Jean sees Nikko for OT 1-1 from 8:30 - 9:00 on Tuesdays and also at centers on Wednesday. She works with him at arrival and dismissal routines, also in the sensory motor group on Tuesday from 10:20 - 10:50. She also oversees his sensory diet.
I see Nikko during group language everyday for 10 minutes, at centers twice a week and then I pull him for 20 minutes twice a week 1-1.
We talked about the idea of private speech. We can't really recommend private therapy to parents. He is at a prime language time now but will be getting a lot of communication work during ABA too. Many families do find private speech beneficial especially when there are breaks from school like over the summer. Have you checked with your insurance company to see if they would cover it?
Please don't ever be embarrassed to ask questions!!!! That's what we are here for!
Maria came for therapy at 1p. We all went downstairs and Ronin & Audrey were eager to play there as well as interact with Maria. But when it was time to go, Nikko turned to me to kiss me good bye and I said to him, "Have fun! See you later!" We went upstairs and I tried to finish giving Audrey her lunch. I could hear some of Nikko's whining in the background, and twice I actually stood in the hallway because Nikko sounded like he was protesting something. All I could hear was praise coming from Maria, as if she were engaging him in an activity that he didn't want to complete. I heard her tell Nikko to clap his hands. I couldn't tell if he actually did; I think she'd tell him and then sit back and wait until he did, or until he sat doing nothing and then she'd ask him one more time before she did hand over hand. That, in essence is how the "drill" portion of the therapy was supposed to work. But when the session was finished and they came upstairs, Maria said he had a really good session. He did very well with matching, saying our names (daddy, Audrey, mommy, Ronin) and picking the correct photo, which she said he did perfectly. She asked me if, when Nikko gets frustrated, does he scream or make noises? I said yes, he's begun to whine and the whining starts cranking up if he doesn't get what he wants. Maria suggested that the school make a visual prompt on a ring, using words such as : Wait, Stop, Go, Help, Break, Bathroom. The visual prompt is basically a picture to represent the action. The school team uses a big metal ring with a PEC picture of an action on it, so when a teacher tells Nikko to STAND UP for whatever reason, they will tell him and then flip to the picture of a person standing up. This reinforces the verbal action with a visual aid, or prompt. Ta-daaaa. Two other things Maria talked to me about today were note-taking, and respite. She said that if we wanted someone (her) to come take notes during Nikko's IEP meeting (June 4th) then we can ask her and she'll do it, to keep track of who said what during the meeting. Her fee would be less than the current hourly rate. It sounds like a good idea, since I may have a hard time trying to keep track of everything going on in the meeting, but I told her I'd talk about it with Denis. Maria also asked me if I ever use services via the school or support groups to take a break. Um, no... How about family members? Um, sometimes... She told me that especially over the summer MGB Services gets college students to help, or babysit, and that for a small fee (of course) I might want to try it. I told her that I would seriously consider that, because I really do need to break from these kids on occasion. Or I'll go mad.
****TMI ALERT! TMI ALERT!**** IF YOU CAN'T HANDLE GRAPHIC POO DESCRIPTIONS, SKIP TO THE LAST PARAGRAPH NOW!
Ah, what a pity that my day didn't end there. Ronin was in his room napping when ABA was finished. Nikko was in the living room, Audrey was floating between rooms, and I was at the laptop writing on the ASD forum about the possibility of using melatonin for Nikko and what others' experiences were with their kids. I think Audrey was complaining about something when I realized that Nikko had been pretty silent for a while. I got up to check on him in the living room and he appeared in front of me with his hands covered in poo. I grabbed his sleeved forearms and tried to quickly assess the situation. It was bad. I glanced at the couch armrest near the mirrored wall and saw streaks. I looked at the table near the window and saw streaks. I stifled a scream and tried to scan the floors and trace where he might have been camping out. I noticed one of the ottomans had some streaks. Later, I'd notice one of the Thomas chairs was a victim, as well as the chaise lounge end of the sofa and one of Ronin's sweatpants that became a victim by association. I started dragging Nikko toward the kitchen because he was starting to rub his hands together and I could see some not-so-dried flecks fall to the floor. Then I saw Audrey in the doorway and I stopped cold. No way could she be on the loose, so I had to briefly let Nikko go, scoop up Audrey and put her in her high chair. Thankfully her bottle of milk was half-full and already sitting there. Then I quickly seized Nikko's forearms again and ran to the tub. I put him in, stripped him down to his diaper, turned on the faucet and sprayed his hands full of foam soap to occupy him. I ran back to Audrey and dumped a bunch of animal cookies onto her tray. I gathered paper towels, Lysol wipes, plastic bags for garbage, and Carpet Resolve. I kept running back to check on Nikko while I raced around the living room, spraying Resolve on the couch and rubbing off the streaks, then reapplying and rubbing again. I scrubbed the table, put the Thomas chair up high so I could wash the cover later, put all the blankets on the floor in a laundry basket because I had no idea if any flecks fell on them, gathered a toy or two that got smeared, and kept scanning the floor for obvious things to step on. Ronin woke up and was calling to me from his room, but I kept him in there as long as I could before taking him out and plopped him into his high chair, along with some animal cookies. Nikko had already stepped out of the tub numerous times to see what I was doing, so now I could finally get to him and scrub him down. While in the bathroom, I heard a CRASH from the kitchen. I went in to see that Audrey had dragged a small plate on top of the dishwasher over to her high chair, then pushed it off her tray. It broke into big and little pieces, so I had to sweep up the porcelain plate and worry that the kids could step on shards. While I seemed in control with Nikko's poo situation, putting the broken plate on top of it made me lose my cool and I was mad about everything now. I finished bathing Nikko and dressed him up in the kitchen. Then I sat him down and threw Oreos at everyone so I could go back to the living room and pull up all the colored rubber mats on the floor. I couldn't take any chances with the mats, and they hadn't been washed in a long time anyway. I put them all in the tub and rinsed them off, later putting dishwashing soap on them too. The bathroom looked pretty trashed. Then I swiffered the floor and then mopped it. By now, Audrey was going ballistic because she had sat the longest of everyone. I let her go, finally. Nikko must have been tired from everything because he fell asleep for a 45 minute nap. I was really surprised by his bowel movement because it came out of nowhere. I've been putting half a cap of MiraLAX in his juice for two days on, a few off, to keep him regular. On a day where he's having a movement, difficult or not, there would be smears in his diaper and I'd be aware that he was working on something. This time, there were no warning smears, otherwise I'd have been watching him even more closely to prevent this very event. I don't think he particularly enjoyed the smearfest; it's not a sensory thing in my opinion, I just think he had a movement, hadn't' been changed right away, felt really uncomfortable, and so he started scratching. Downhill from there.
Just before I put Audrey down to bed, Denis and the boys were in the living room in front of the TV. The boys were fighting over the unsoiled Thomas chair, but Denis started doing turn-taking between them and the boys responded well. When Nikko sat down, we would say, "Nikko's turn!" then he'd bound up and be followed by Ronin for "Ronin's turn!" Nikko sat down again, waiting for someone to announce his turn. When neither Denis nor I said anything, Nikko turned to look at me and said, "Nikko's turn!" Then I'd repeat it and he bounded off. Denis had told me Nikko was saying Nikko's Turn, but I hadn't heard it until just then. That was a glimmer of spontaneous communication to me! :)
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Mermaid song
5a, Ronin cries. He meets me at the door and I point him toward bed. He seems bright-eyed and bushy-tailed and announces that he wants to play. "Ronin, it's 5 o'clock in the morning. No one is awake. Go back to sleep." He starts talking, but I shush him and lay at the foot of his bed. I think he stayed awake for a while, and I checked on his breathing a few times. By 5:45a he was deeply sleeping again. I walked back to my bed, and then at 6:15a Nikko wakes up. I go to his room and lay down while he chatters away. 6:45a Ronin is awake and I usher him out of the room quickly so Audrey doesn't fully waken. Looks like a pattern here, eh? I think I wouldn't be hurting so badly if I weren't going to bed at 1:30a. So, I'll go to bed by 12 tonight. I blame last night's late sleep on watching LOST on the DVR. Sorry, can't miss it!
Nikko was drowsy on the bus home and remained in fairly good spirits. After Audrey woke up from her nap, I got the troops ready to go to Costco for provisions. Nikko was drowsy and fell asleep while I was getting gas, so I had to wake him up when we got there. Ronin had fallen asleep in the cart while Audrey and Nikko stayed awake and behaved rather well. Nikko wanted to open the packaging of a book that had little cars in it so I had to quell him with a Dum Dum lollipop. We got home and I snacked the kids. Then I was able to open these books with little cars in them and for the first time in months, the kids were playing while the TV was off. The silence was almost screaming in my ears! It didn't last too long, but it was kind of nice to know that the kids could play without the background noise. Of the little cars, there were some Disney characters mixed in, including a little Nemo and Bruce the Shark which Nikko commandeered for most of the evening. Right now, Nemo is MIA so Nikko has Bruce with him. Nikko was tired by bedtime and I watched his eyelids fight closing when prayers were finished and I was tucking him in. I absolutely love the evenings when he is so tired that he falls asleep before I leave the room. But this way of drifting off is so different from what I saw last night. Nikko was not completely sleepy at tuck-in time, although he was tired. When I leaned close to him so I could sing the Good Night song, his eyes were darting everywhere except at mine and his breathing was shallow as if he were very anxious, and possibly scared. I sang to him and tried to soothe him, but it wasn't working. I knew that when I left the room there would be tears. I tried to give Nikko some big hugs and shoulder squeezes, but he still looked so anxious. When I got up to (almost) leave and reposition his blanket, his eyes closed really tight and he started to whine. When I did leave to go tuck in Ronin, Nikko started wailing. I heard heavy things moving around in his room and when I came in, he was trying to move the rocker glider toward the light switch. I pointed him back to bed and dragged the chair into the hallway. Again I tried to reassure Nikko but he was still anxious. I left the room and he had another spell. I could hear him moving around, so I didn't wait long to reenter. When I did, he was sitting up in bed with his blankets balled up around him as if he were trying to straighten them. I helped him out, said the Good Night Mantra, and left. This time, he stayed in bed and was quiet. Thank goodness. I calculated that he is averaging 9 hours of sleep a night. I know he needs more, but don't know how to give it to him. We are going to try pushing bedtime back by at least 15 minutes. Does sleep beget sleep? That has been my question.
One more thing... there's a Wiggles movie we have called Racing to the Rainbow. It's pretty kooky, but the kids are enjoying it the more they watch it. Today I heard Nikko singing a song but I couldn't place the melody. Later in the evening I recognized that he was singing a "La la, la la, la la" melody to a song from that movie, a song about a mermaid. Once I identified the tune, I started singing it back to Nikko. He looked at me with a secret smile and he held up his hand as if to hit me in the shoulder, but he hesitated because it was more of a moment of recognition between us, like me saying Hey Nikko, I figured out your song, I'm on to you! What I'm loving is that Nikko's got music in his head and now he's got a voice to let it out.
Nikko was drowsy on the bus home and remained in fairly good spirits. After Audrey woke up from her nap, I got the troops ready to go to Costco for provisions. Nikko was drowsy and fell asleep while I was getting gas, so I had to wake him up when we got there. Ronin had fallen asleep in the cart while Audrey and Nikko stayed awake and behaved rather well. Nikko wanted to open the packaging of a book that had little cars in it so I had to quell him with a Dum Dum lollipop. We got home and I snacked the kids. Then I was able to open these books with little cars in them and for the first time in months, the kids were playing while the TV was off. The silence was almost screaming in my ears! It didn't last too long, but it was kind of nice to know that the kids could play without the background noise. Of the little cars, there were some Disney characters mixed in, including a little Nemo and Bruce the Shark which Nikko commandeered for most of the evening. Right now, Nemo is MIA so Nikko has Bruce with him. Nikko was tired by bedtime and I watched his eyelids fight closing when prayers were finished and I was tucking him in. I absolutely love the evenings when he is so tired that he falls asleep before I leave the room. But this way of drifting off is so different from what I saw last night. Nikko was not completely sleepy at tuck-in time, although he was tired. When I leaned close to him so I could sing the Good Night song, his eyes were darting everywhere except at mine and his breathing was shallow as if he were very anxious, and possibly scared. I sang to him and tried to soothe him, but it wasn't working. I knew that when I left the room there would be tears. I tried to give Nikko some big hugs and shoulder squeezes, but he still looked so anxious. When I got up to (almost) leave and reposition his blanket, his eyes closed really tight and he started to whine. When I did leave to go tuck in Ronin, Nikko started wailing. I heard heavy things moving around in his room and when I came in, he was trying to move the rocker glider toward the light switch. I pointed him back to bed and dragged the chair into the hallway. Again I tried to reassure Nikko but he was still anxious. I left the room and he had another spell. I could hear him moving around, so I didn't wait long to reenter. When I did, he was sitting up in bed with his blankets balled up around him as if he were trying to straighten them. I helped him out, said the Good Night Mantra, and left. This time, he stayed in bed and was quiet. Thank goodness. I calculated that he is averaging 9 hours of sleep a night. I know he needs more, but don't know how to give it to him. We are going to try pushing bedtime back by at least 15 minutes. Does sleep beget sleep? That has been my question.
One more thing... there's a Wiggles movie we have called Racing to the Rainbow. It's pretty kooky, but the kids are enjoying it the more they watch it. Today I heard Nikko singing a song but I couldn't place the melody. Later in the evening I recognized that he was singing a "La la, la la, la la" melody to a song from that movie, a song about a mermaid. Once I identified the tune, I started singing it back to Nikko. He looked at me with a secret smile and he held up his hand as if to hit me in the shoulder, but he hesitated because it was more of a moment of recognition between us, like me saying Hey Nikko, I figured out your song, I'm on to you! What I'm loving is that Nikko's got music in his head and now he's got a voice to let it out.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
I'm tired of talking about sleep problems. :(
4a, Ronin cries out. I jump out of bed but stand disoriented in my room because I don't know which kid is crying or where the door is. Finally I focus and figure out which room to run to. I tuck Ronin back in bed before he makes more noise to wake up Audrey and watch him to make sure he falls back asleep. I return back to my bed until at 6a Nikko cries out, so I join him. Sure enough, Ronin wakes up and we are all out in the living room again in the morning. Looking like a trend over here. What time will Ronin wake up this morning?
Nikko seemed pretty tired all day but he didn't end up napping. Melissa came at 2p for ABA and when it was time for me to leave the basement I told him to have fun, and he came over and gave me a kiss and a g'bye before going to the table to sit. It sounded like his session was good, and I heard him doing some cleanup at the end. After snacking the kids, I took them downstairs to play. I did a little bit of running around the way Denis did last night, and the boys enjoyed it. My endurance is pretty bad, however. We came back upstairs so I could put Audrey down for a quick nap. This was another opportunity for Nikko to nap, but he didn't take it. Dinnertime rolled around, and then bath and bed followed. Nikko fell asleep quickly. Ronin called out to me five minutes after I left the room, and this is really bothering me. I've got to find out how to sleep train Ronin while Audrey is in the same room. Cry-it-out tactics will be difficult because he'll probably wake her up. We just don't have a third bedroom, and aren't willing to put Audrey back in ours.
Nikko seemed pretty tired all day but he didn't end up napping. Melissa came at 2p for ABA and when it was time for me to leave the basement I told him to have fun, and he came over and gave me a kiss and a g'bye before going to the table to sit. It sounded like his session was good, and I heard him doing some cleanup at the end. After snacking the kids, I took them downstairs to play. I did a little bit of running around the way Denis did last night, and the boys enjoyed it. My endurance is pretty bad, however. We came back upstairs so I could put Audrey down for a quick nap. This was another opportunity for Nikko to nap, but he didn't take it. Dinnertime rolled around, and then bath and bed followed. Nikko fell asleep quickly. Ronin called out to me five minutes after I left the room, and this is really bothering me. I've got to find out how to sleep train Ronin while Audrey is in the same room. Cry-it-out tactics will be difficult because he'll probably wake her up. We just don't have a third bedroom, and aren't willing to put Audrey back in ours.
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